Then, What?......

Do you find yourself looking around at your present situation, thinking, What have I made of myself? What have I invested in myself? Or the scary one, what or who have I become?
Seriously, this has been my question to myself for the past month, "What do I want to be when I grow up?".
Think about it. As a child growing up you had dreams, goals, aspirations, maybe even a plan. Although, through the years, those things may have changed. There was still a desire to be more, to be something or somebody. No one says, when I grow up I want to be a nobody. Even if the "Somebody" you want to be is unclear, the answer is never, a "nobody". Be it a dream of being a model shifts to being a designer, or being a doctor shifts to becoming a nurse, a teacher to a professor, or a mechanic to an automobile creator. Maybe a change even more drastic, like aspiring to be a pilot shifts to becoming a daycare owner. The fact of the matter is, everyone at some point in life desires or makes plans to be Somebody, something, or just make a difference.
Somewhere down the road, Life happens. Then, what.... happens to our dreams, goals, desires.....our plans?
They get pushed aside, put on the back burner, ignored, forgotten, labeled unattainable, not practical, or just changed and redirected. Whatever the reason, those once said dreams and aspirations don't appear that BIG anymore. They're not headlined on the marquis in flashing lights.....Introducing, to the world, the wonderful, talented, well-known, intelligent, Dr, Writer, Dancer, Captain......(your name here)!
We settle, for whatever comes next, the next best thing. Not everyone, obviously....because the dreams came from someone. Either we saw or read what it looked like to be this person. But now, it's not so clear anymore. All we see is what's right in front of us. Whether it's family, friends, marriage, kids, debt.....life. Our success and failures. Our regrets and "not yets".
So, what now? Then, What?......
Do you start over, revert back to childhood dreams and schemes? Do you reroute the plan? Do you make a new plan? Back to the drawing board?
For some, YES! For others, not a chance.
Yes, because it's never too late! Right? There is still time. It's not over till it's done. You have nothing to loose, no one or nothing holding you back, no one depending on you to make it work. That's the optimum circumstance.
But what about those that have everything to lose, people watching and waiting, dependents needing you to make a move. Just do something, it really doesn't matter at this point in life,what that something is, "just do it"!  Reality check, it's easier said than done. Shoot, keeping it real, sometimes its just plain scary.
The fear of failure and disappointment stands in your way. Everyone is counting on you to make it, waiting on you to fake it, hoping you don't break it!
Do you find yourself reaching a point in life where, just doing something is just not good enough?
Then, What?.............